Made it through another 12 months. It certainly has been filled with new experiences & some scary moments (no more sitting vigil in hospital room, thank you!)
1. Realized my family is a dynamic that is quite convoluted, but damn wonderful when you get through all the crapola on the surface.
2. I met several unique and talented people through Chesterfield Arts this year. It has awakened the creative side of my brain and inspired me to try new avenues (and get back to things I enjoyed doing years ago).
3. Becoming unemployed was a mixed blessing. I no longer feel the choke hold of the corporate office on every interaction/conversation. Albeit economically, it was a jolt, I used this opportunity to re-evaluate my consumer/spending habits. Just stunned at how much piddly expenditures you "throw your hard eared $$ on" when you have a steady income. Society sure wants you to swipe that card at every opportunity, which, I really haven't done in the past year.
4. Expanding on the career portion, I forgot what a gerbil cage I was in the past decade... wow, poof! Hello world!! It is quite different being out the child care world. I do miss the unbridled hugs/kisses/tackles that enveloped me on a daily basis & miss watching the kids grow into their own personalities. I think that part of me shall live forever, because that is who I am.
5. My son turned 18 this year... milestone for me! I can honestly tell people I have raised my son! Senior year of HS is zooming past. He is really active in theater at school (starred as a pirate in Peter Pan, also did some technical flying in that show, this Fall he starred as Scrooge in "A Christmas Carol", he is also directing a one-act play, the Stage manager for "Thorougly Modern Millie" and cadet teaching a Theater I class this semester), not sure where the other academics will fall into place, but he made a 3.2 GPA so far. Sheesh! I am actually going to miss this pandemonium!
6. Since the local radio stations are succumbing to Big Brother-type conglomerates (or disappearing off the airwaves completely), I was seeking an outlet to keep a pulse on new artists, world music and any collaborations my favorite musicians have in the making. I used the music feature on our TV from our cable provider & dabbled a bit on Yahoo/MSN/Pandora etc. I discovered BBC radio and have enjoyed this so much. Completely varied format from the states, where artists talk about MUSIC not the LABEL they are under contract. I am also investigating music at the library before I purchase (a downloaded track) to make sure I can listen to it over & over and not tire of it quickly.
7. This e-book thing is not my cup of tea. I downloaded a couple of books via the library to get the experience. I can read a blog, newsletter, article on a computer screen, but there is something personal about holding a physical text copy. I will not be on the bandwagon & will support my local bookseller (shout out to Subterranean Books in UCity!) until I am no longer to read the print on a page.
8. Teaching my parents the ropes of a cell phone & internet has been a treat. The cell phone has come in handy with all the medical stuff we have had as a family & we were able to keep in touch waiting to hear results of surgeries/procedures. Let me see, at last count we had 7 medical issues this year. As late as it is tonight, I pray we have no more for another decade!!
9.She was not trained to be, however, our dog, Chloe, has become a support dog for my brother. This is the year she grew up (she is now 3) and has perfected some of her commands. She watches for him dutifully by the front window in the family room, notifies us when he wakes up (or will help do just that if we mention it) and corrals him to his room & stays with him until he falls asleep. Who knew?!?
10. I intend to make the best of the upcoming year & decade. I am entering my mid-40's and plan to make these next 3 + decades something I can look back on proudly. I am going to take better care of both my physical body & spirit as I did about 20 years ago. I want to be active like my grandmother had been up until the past 6 years (she is 97 & still gardening/cooking but I know her light is fading, just being selfish to want to keep her around longer than she is willing). I need to let her know that she has been a role model for me in a way she will take to heart.
So, year of adventure, disappointment, discovery and loss, I bid thee farewell. I have taken to heart the cards I've been dealt & played those that I could in good faith.
Here's to a new year of hope & wonder. Please shine a little love on us this year....
Cheers, all!
SNOW
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
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Friday, December 11, 2009
Grinch-logic
And the Grinch, with his Grinch-feet ice cold in the snow, stood puzzling and puzzling, how could it be so? It came without ribbons. It came without tags. It came without packages, boxes or bags. And he puzzled and puzzled ’till his puzzler was sore. Then the Grinch thought of something he hadn’t before. What if Christmas, he thought, doesn’t come from a store. What if Christmas, perhaps, means a little bit more.
- Dr. Seuss
Saturday, November 14, 2009
It's...... showtime!
Gabe is in the midst of his senior year of high school. A great opportunity presented itself when he auditioned & was selected for the role of Scrooge in "A Christmas Carol".As a theater parent, I have been helping behind the scenes with costumes & other incidentals. I've had a chance to see glimpses of the show emerge into its final stages. My son has shown so much leadership with this production. He's embraced the cast & crew (and chastised them as well and has steered the team into the right direction. Who knew I would ever enjoy spending evenings & weekends with teenagers?!!
Way to go Marquette Theatre Company.... keeping up the reputation of professionalism in performance!
Break a leg..... love you all!
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Where is MY pot of gold?
After dodging raindrops that would fill a tablespoon, I dashed home to get a shot of this rainbow. Every time I look at a rainbow I seek to identify each color, ensuring each one was accounted for.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Robotic
Today's Writing Prompt: Robot
If you could have a robot to help you, what task(s) would it do? What would its name be?This would be a welcome addition to the family.
Tasks:
*walk dog
*dispense/remind medication for each family member
*unload dishwasher
*laundry start to finish
His name (why a he? mm, because I would make him adorable) would be Adonis! ;)
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Are you a teacher?....
This weekend, I was manning a booth at the local Strassenfest for an agency at which I volunteer There was a color/cut/assemble/embellish activity for the kids. I'm a natural with kids & although I haven't been around the littler set for a while, I guess I haven't lost my touch. Parents were helping the kids 'hurry' through the project. I explained this was a great time to just enjoy the quiet time with their kids who were actually occupied. Funny how some dads had their Blackberries out or stood back with their beer mug while the moms took over the role. After encouraging some of them, the dads did start to get into the activity @ some level. Some of the assembly I would walk the kids through in a patient voice & let them do the work. Several parents would ask, "Are you a teacher?" I would admit by training I was, but had been out of the classroom for several years. I was told that the most frustrating part of the project I kept the kids involvement whereas they would have just "lost it" with the kids & just done it to get it finished.
Every child left with a big smile on their face that reminded me why I got into education!
I posed the question to several families, perhaps it was rhetorical, maybe not...
Funny how we encourage our children to get into art projects... "go on, try it", we tell them. However as adults, we shy away from this area. Why is that?!
Guess people were too busy with all their adult business to consider creativity!
Every child left with a big smile on their face that reminded me why I got into education!
I posed the question to several families, perhaps it was rhetorical, maybe not...
Funny how we encourage our children to get into art projects... "go on, try it", we tell them. However as adults, we shy away from this area. Why is that?!
Guess people were too busy with all their adult business to consider creativity!
Sunday, September 13, 2009
In the cool, cool, cool of the evening...
My life has been quite a whirlwind of activity (unusual for an unemployed gal, no?) the past few weeks, keeping me from posting my innermost thoughts.
I am entering a chapter in my life that is quite foreign to me. Aging, medically bound parents, a brother with special needs that doesn't comprehend the challenges they are facing & reacts with his own series of issues.
Then, my son is getting closer to high school graduation, applications & letters piled up in our mailbox daily, postcards from XYZ University touting statistics on glossy cardstock, it's all approaching at once. (** I'll be glad once the decision is final... the mail carrier has been getting quite a work out)
I am trying to "get" where my parents are mentally with this whole aging process. My father seems to be fighting all his medical battles rather well, although I hear his heavy sighs every so often. Mom is all emotion about the issues she faces. I do wish she took more interest in the life around her & be less of a recluse. She is content with library books & listening to music/watching TV. I encourage them to go out on a "date"somewhere, but reasons come up to stay home.
I wish they they would go out, learn something new... keep their minds alive with new ideas, people, etc.
I enjoy the place our home has become. Not just the physical improvements/decorating of the building, but the "feel" of the house. It seems to be a smoother run system of chores/duties & the ambience is tranquil (compared to walking in after working a 10 hour day with a list of grievances & duties to attend to within the next 3 hours if I was to get any sleep).
Granted, financially, this unemployment was a blow. However, as a family, it allowed us to re-evalute what our priorities are. I felt really guilty intially, thinking that all the health issues were being kept at bay because I was not able to get off work to help with ???. I got over it eventually & channeled the energy to become the family health/medical/household manager.
Putting things in order helps me get my mental chaos in check. Just uncertain how the cards we've been dealt will be played out in the end.
I am entering a chapter in my life that is quite foreign to me. Aging, medically bound parents, a brother with special needs that doesn't comprehend the challenges they are facing & reacts with his own series of issues.
Then, my son is getting closer to high school graduation, applications & letters piled up in our mailbox daily, postcards from XYZ University touting statistics on glossy cardstock, it's all approaching at once. (** I'll be glad once the decision is final... the mail carrier has been getting quite a work out)
I am trying to "get" where my parents are mentally with this whole aging process. My father seems to be fighting all his medical battles rather well, although I hear his heavy sighs every so often. Mom is all emotion about the issues she faces. I do wish she took more interest in the life around her & be less of a recluse. She is content with library books & listening to music/watching TV. I encourage them to go out on a "date"somewhere, but reasons come up to stay home.
I wish they they would go out, learn something new... keep their minds alive with new ideas, people, etc.
I enjoy the place our home has become. Not just the physical improvements/decorating of the building, but the "feel" of the house. It seems to be a smoother run system of chores/duties & the ambience is tranquil (compared to walking in after working a 10 hour day with a list of grievances & duties to attend to within the next 3 hours if I was to get any sleep).
Granted, financially, this unemployment was a blow. However, as a family, it allowed us to re-evalute what our priorities are. I felt really guilty intially, thinking that all the health issues were being kept at bay because I was not able to get off work to help with ???. I got over it eventually & channeled the energy to become the family health/medical/household manager.
Putting things in order helps me get my mental chaos in check. Just uncertain how the cards we've been dealt will be played out in the end.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Brothers are awesome
My brother adores ice cream. He's pretty particular on his choices as well. DQ has the best soft serve in his book. Tony also enjoys people watching, which I think make other people nervous. Hey, he's been on the receiving end of that for so long, he's due for his chances. The thing is, he knows when people are staring & he'll show off.Gotta work on curbing that!
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Well, hello there!
This new exhibit is going to be amazing. We have a traveling exhibit of Seward Johnson's works that is quite entertaining.Here is a glimpse of what has popped up around town this past week:
Monday, June 15, 2009
Exam time
Looks like I am the "bad guy" tonight. My teenage son is out about town on some scavenger hunt with friends who will be leaving for college. We have agreements (or so I thought) about checking in & answering calls when out. I suppose it is super "uncool" to have that connection, but with our family situation, it is a necessity. Several hours into this event, he chooses NOT to respond to call but texts me info that he'll be back within the hour & can't talk.
I am all about the peer bonding thing! I thrived in it every summer when I was a camp counselor. But there does lie a certain responsibility which needs to be upheld. As a single parent, I get the "best" of both worlds. I have fumed enough, put my thoughts & consequences in writing....
He's home, safe (pissed off at me, no doubt). Here comes one of those great tests of parenting 101...
I am all about the peer bonding thing! I thrived in it every summer when I was a camp counselor. But there does lie a certain responsibility which needs to be upheld. As a single parent, I get the "best" of both worlds. I have fumed enough, put my thoughts & consequences in writing....
He's home, safe (pissed off at me, no doubt). Here comes one of those great tests of parenting 101...
Friday, May 22, 2009
Thursday, May 14, 2009
The power of ONE
Tonight I experienced one of those heart warming moments as a parent. My son had campaigned to be president of his high school theater club. There were 2 other people running for the office as well.
Prior to the reveal of the officer positions, the theater teacher/director had mentioned that the person who was elected by one vote. She went on to speak of the power of one voice, one person, one chance. So, that part alone got me thinking how my son had taken a chance, put himself out there to be judged by his peers (something I NEVER would have done @ his age, I liked my anonymity then). I reflected on the passion and energy he had in composing his speech late into the evenings, the diligence he took with his campaign posters (never recall such nice writing). Today, he brought 2 trays of brownies for his theater group of friends & wished his competitors a "happy president's day"...cute gesture.
So, here we are, the big moment. Each current officer has a bag of items to welcome the new inductee. The current president revealed that it was one of Gabe's competitors & I had a small sinking feeling in my heart, but only to be welled up with tears of pride to see him rise to his feet to give her a standing ovation. He was honestly thrilled that she got the position. She was crying out of disbelief & joy that she got the nomination. His friends give him hugs and offer kind words, knowing he really wanted the position, but he never gave anyone the impression he was upset. Gabe gave me that knowing wink from across the room & the tears came streaming down. This was my boy, now I see the man he will become. A good hearted man who gives it his all, regardless of status.
He ended up with some other notable recognitions; the only underclassman (not a senior) to accumulate over 50points for the International Thespian Society and the 2009 most promising Technical Theater Award as a Junior.
Prior to the reveal of the officer positions, the theater teacher/director had mentioned that the person who was elected by one vote. She went on to speak of the power of one voice, one person, one chance. So, that part alone got me thinking how my son had taken a chance, put himself out there to be judged by his peers (something I NEVER would have done @ his age, I liked my anonymity then). I reflected on the passion and energy he had in composing his speech late into the evenings, the diligence he took with his campaign posters (never recall such nice writing). Today, he brought 2 trays of brownies for his theater group of friends & wished his competitors a "happy president's day"...cute gesture.
So, here we are, the big moment. Each current officer has a bag of items to welcome the new inductee. The current president revealed that it was one of Gabe's competitors & I had a small sinking feeling in my heart, but only to be welled up with tears of pride to see him rise to his feet to give her a standing ovation. He was honestly thrilled that she got the position. She was crying out of disbelief & joy that she got the nomination. His friends give him hugs and offer kind words, knowing he really wanted the position, but he never gave anyone the impression he was upset. Gabe gave me that knowing wink from across the room & the tears came streaming down. This was my boy, now I see the man he will become. A good hearted man who gives it his all, regardless of status.
He ended up with some other notable recognitions; the only underclassman (not a senior) to accumulate over 50points for the International Thespian Society and the 2009 most promising Technical Theater Award as a Junior.
I am feeling the good karma tonight for my son.
I believe in the power of one!
I believe in the power of one!
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Tag, you're it...
Rules: Answer the questions. Replace the one question you dislike the most with one of your own, AND add one question of your liking. Tag five untagged people. Ready? GO!
What is your current obsession?
Knitting, I just re-learned it after many years. Love it!
What are you wearing now?
My comfy worn out cotton shorts that I refuse to surrender & a jazz festival t-shirt from volunteering. Looks like I won't be acquiring any more since they are on "hiatus", 8 years was a good run, though.
Do you nap a lot?
I do catch myself finding napping opportunities every so often. If I nap too long, my whole internal clock is out of whack can't get to sleep at a decent hour.
What is under your bed?
A rug that’s actually supposed to be in the middle of the room. No matter how often I move it back, it inches slowly, day by day, on its own back underneath the bed.
Hopefully, the match to a tennis shoe that my dog ran off with about 20 minutes ago. Also several dust bunnies have reconvened for their weekly reunion.
What would you like to learn to do?
Teach my dog to channel her energy on an agility course, I enjoy watching the championships on Animal Planet, and I think Chloe does, too.
What’s for dinner?
We had buffalo chicken wings, zucchini spears & rice. Bananas Foster with ice cream for dessert.
What was the last thing you bought?
lemons, cheese & french bread.
What is your favorite weather?
Today was a fine example, upper 70's & sunny. Tonight we had some thunderstorms, which seem hypnotic to me.
If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
With the gang of girls in Boston! I am outnumbered here!
What is your most challenging goal right now?
Deciding on the priority of full time employment versus part time work. Family needs have come into the forefront the past 5 months and I now realize that I've neglected that responsibility more than I can explain. I know the answer is right in front of me, I just feel the need to over analyze the concept!
Why do you blog?
I initially started to share pictures, then I enjoyed posting thoughts and personal observations for others to share
what would you like to have in your hands right now?
A cup of chai latte or something to drink.
What do you want but can’t have right this second?
A massage (preferably by an attractive, unattached, virile male who has a few hours to spare)
What languages can you speak?
English, Spanish & Lithuanian (it's a lot of work but I can get by)
What language(s) do you want to be able to speak?
Something lyrical like French or Italian
What's one thing you're looking forward to?
An upcoming theater banquet that will determine if my son was elected as President of the theatre company and if he will be a cappie for the next school year. These things have taken over all dinner conversations. The anticipation is growing weary!
What websites do you visit constantly during the day?
CNN,Two Peas in a Bucket, Blogger, bank, Facebook and BBC radio
If you could only listen to one artist for the rest of your life who would it be?
Dave Koz, I swear he is working on the soundtrack to my life!
If you had all the time in the world, what would you do with it?
Good stuff! Help people, be creative, and travel while doing the aforementioned.
What is your favorite time period?
Renaissance.
When you are unplugged from technology, what activities do you enjoy?
I enjoy reading and spending time with my son. I've determined that if we are playing a card game, chess, mancala or some other non mechanical activity, I am able to catch up on what is important in his life at the moment. I relish the positive relationship I have with him. I recall a time when I couldn't answer things like his favorite color, biggest fear, favorite subject etc. That was an eye opener for me.
I am tagging: Ana, Lynn, Vanessa
What is your current obsession?
Knitting, I just re-learned it after many years. Love it!
What are you wearing now?
My comfy worn out cotton shorts that I refuse to surrender & a jazz festival t-shirt from volunteering. Looks like I won't be acquiring any more since they are on "hiatus", 8 years was a good run, though.
Do you nap a lot?
I do catch myself finding napping opportunities every so often. If I nap too long, my whole internal clock is out of whack can't get to sleep at a decent hour.
What is under your bed?
A rug that’s actually supposed to be in the middle of the room. No matter how often I move it back, it inches slowly, day by day, on its own back underneath the bed.
Hopefully, the match to a tennis shoe that my dog ran off with about 20 minutes ago. Also several dust bunnies have reconvened for their weekly reunion.
What would you like to learn to do?
Teach my dog to channel her energy on an agility course, I enjoy watching the championships on Animal Planet, and I think Chloe does, too.
What’s for dinner?
We had buffalo chicken wings, zucchini spears & rice. Bananas Foster with ice cream for dessert.
What was the last thing you bought?
lemons, cheese & french bread.
What is your favorite weather?
Today was a fine example, upper 70's & sunny. Tonight we had some thunderstorms, which seem hypnotic to me.
If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
With the gang of girls in Boston! I am outnumbered here!
What is your most challenging goal right now?
Deciding on the priority of full time employment versus part time work. Family needs have come into the forefront the past 5 months and I now realize that I've neglected that responsibility more than I can explain. I know the answer is right in front of me, I just feel the need to over analyze the concept!
Why do you blog?
I initially started to share pictures, then I enjoyed posting thoughts and personal observations for others to share
what would you like to have in your hands right now?
A cup of chai latte or something to drink.
What do you want but can’t have right this second?
A massage (preferably by an attractive, unattached, virile male who has a few hours to spare)
What languages can you speak?
English, Spanish & Lithuanian (it's a lot of work but I can get by)
What language(s) do you want to be able to speak?
Something lyrical like French or Italian
What's one thing you're looking forward to?
An upcoming theater banquet that will determine if my son was elected as President of the theatre company and if he will be a cappie for the next school year. These things have taken over all dinner conversations. The anticipation is growing weary!
What websites do you visit constantly during the day?
CNN,Two Peas in a Bucket, Blogger, bank, Facebook and BBC radio
If you could only listen to one artist for the rest of your life who would it be?
Dave Koz, I swear he is working on the soundtrack to my life!
If you had all the time in the world, what would you do with it?
Good stuff! Help people, be creative, and travel while doing the aforementioned.
What is your favorite time period?
Renaissance.
When you are unplugged from technology, what activities do you enjoy?
I enjoy reading and spending time with my son. I've determined that if we are playing a card game, chess, mancala or some other non mechanical activity, I am able to catch up on what is important in his life at the moment. I relish the positive relationship I have with him. I recall a time when I couldn't answer things like his favorite color, biggest fear, favorite subject etc. That was an eye opener for me.
I am tagging: Ana, Lynn, Vanessa
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Well, hello there!
Our pup was causing a commotion at the patio window. Went to see what was amiss, only to find a couple of Canadian Geese stopping by...
Monday, April 20, 2009
Truth in fiction?!?
So, I will be the first to admit I am a skeptic. If the forecast calls for 3 " of snow, or that I can clean my shower with the flick of a switch, I am the stick in the mud staying , "I live in the 'show-me state'!!"
On a recent trip to the library, I encountered a book on colorstrology--- the concept is that you find your birth date & it will reveal your "color" and describe your traits.
Step 1. Locate birthday; Jan 27 (easy enough) Hmm... the page is polignac (purplish hue), I like purple(coincidence?) The opposite page is lavender... oh, a mere 24 hours!
Step 2. Read character traits: adorable, interesting, and unusual . Okay, so a lot of people qualify for those traits (check other dates in book to see how often those come up, several).Okay, close. I would have chosen "giving, quirky, and curious" but that's just me talkin' here...
Step 3. Passage excerpt "There is something about you that people just love. It may be your innocence (translated as naive) or your unusual perception of life that keeps people enamored (that's a stretch). You have a strong sense of what is right and wrong, you care deeply about humanity. Friends are important to you, so be sure to surround yourself with the right people." Uh, okay. Pretty accurate. Skeptic says.... "read on".
Step 4. Locate other family members birth dates. Colors are relatively compatible with each person. Characteristics are mostly accurate (my mother's was WAY off in my opinion). My son's & brother's seemed to be the most accurate. We even tried the dog's... it was dead on!
So, I guess some of these -ology books may have some entertainment value. I certainly wouldn't live my life by this stuff.
My son says, "Mom, hate to burst your bubble here. We just studied this stuff in Psych & the traits and characteristics are worked so generically that people can find similarities in most of the stuff out there". Well....yeah! Like those people that reportedly can speak to the deceased, just watch the way they talk to the loved one, it is such a scam!!!
On a recent trip to the library, I encountered a book on colorstrology--- the concept is that you find your birth date & it will reveal your "color" and describe your traits.
Step 1. Locate birthday; Jan 27 (easy enough) Hmm... the page is polignac (purplish hue), I like purple(coincidence?) The opposite page is lavender... oh, a mere 24 hours!
Step 2. Read character traits: adorable, interesting, and unusual . Okay, so a lot of people qualify for those traits (check other dates in book to see how often those come up, several).Okay, close. I would have chosen "giving, quirky, and curious" but that's just me talkin' here...
Step 3. Passage excerpt "There is something about you that people just love. It may be your innocence (translated as naive) or your unusual perception of life that keeps people enamored (that's a stretch). You have a strong sense of what is right and wrong, you care deeply about humanity. Friends are important to you, so be sure to surround yourself with the right people." Uh, okay. Pretty accurate. Skeptic says.... "read on".
Step 4. Locate other family members birth dates. Colors are relatively compatible with each person. Characteristics are mostly accurate (my mother's was WAY off in my opinion). My son's & brother's seemed to be the most accurate. We even tried the dog's... it was dead on!
So, I guess some of these -ology books may have some entertainment value. I certainly wouldn't live my life by this stuff.
My son says, "Mom, hate to burst your bubble here. We just studied this stuff in Psych & the traits and characteristics are worked so generically that people can find similarities in most of the stuff out there". Well....yeah! Like those people that reportedly can speak to the deceased, just watch the way they talk to the loved one, it is such a scam!!!
Let's just refer to it as
"BRAIN CANDY"
(looks & tastes good but isn't nutritious)
and call it a day!
"BRAIN CANDY"
(looks & tastes good but isn't nutritious)
and call it a day!
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Knowing...
Things I would tell my younger self now that I know...
* The grass may be greener on the other side, but it still needs to be fertilized, cut, reseeded.
* Looking into your child's eyes can make everything right again, even if just for a moment.
* Always, trust yourself first, no matter how close you are to someone, you never really know what they are capable of doing.
* A broken heart hurts like hell, but you do come out stronger on the other side of the pain.
* Blood is thicker than water.
* This, too, shall pass. It may not be the outcome you wanted, but you learn something from the experience.
* True friends ask how you are, and actually listen for your answer.
* Remember to keep a sense of humor, especially in respect to yourself.
* Going out to a museum, dinner, event alone allows you to meet interesting people. At first it seems awkward, but knowing all the amazing people I have met by doing this, it was worth the risk.
* Eleanor Roosevelt said, "Do one thing that scares you every day". You will be surprised by the results.
* You never get tired of reading a GOOD book.
* There are REAL moments in your adult life where you actually say, "I am becoming just like my mother". (remember... humor!)
*Parenting is difficult, frustrating, exhausting, overwhelming, and worth every damn second!
* Be honest & consistent with your kids, they can see right though you!
* Beware of tunnel vision as an adult. Look at your surroundings. Some of the most beautiful and important stuff is on the fringe of your periphery.
These were several of the thoughts that were swarming my brain last night. Perhaps it was because I was looking at my son all dressed up for Prom, coming to the realization that he will be graduating high school next year.
Just wanting to put them down in a tangible form for future reference...
* The grass may be greener on the other side, but it still needs to be fertilized, cut, reseeded.
* Looking into your child's eyes can make everything right again, even if just for a moment.
* Always, trust yourself first, no matter how close you are to someone, you never really know what they are capable of doing.
* A broken heart hurts like hell, but you do come out stronger on the other side of the pain.
* Blood is thicker than water.
* This, too, shall pass. It may not be the outcome you wanted, but you learn something from the experience.
* True friends ask how you are, and actually listen for your answer.
* Remember to keep a sense of humor, especially in respect to yourself.
* Going out to a museum, dinner, event alone allows you to meet interesting people. At first it seems awkward, but knowing all the amazing people I have met by doing this, it was worth the risk.
* Eleanor Roosevelt said, "Do one thing that scares you every day". You will be surprised by the results.
* You never get tired of reading a GOOD book.
* There are REAL moments in your adult life where you actually say, "I am becoming just like my mother". (remember... humor!)
*Parenting is difficult, frustrating, exhausting, overwhelming, and worth every damn second!
* Be honest & consistent with your kids, they can see right though you!
* Beware of tunnel vision as an adult. Look at your surroundings. Some of the most beautiful and important stuff is on the fringe of your periphery.
These were several of the thoughts that were swarming my brain last night. Perhaps it was because I was looking at my son all dressed up for Prom, coming to the realization that he will be graduating high school next year.
Just wanting to put them down in a tangible form for future reference...
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
New things...
In keeping with my philosophy of learning new things, I signed up to join a knitting class through the local library. Armed with needles & an open mind, I sought out my librarian buddy, Norma, to guide me on a new adventure.
A little knitting philosophy taken from a tote bag I saw..
A little knitting philosophy taken from a tote bag I saw..
You have two eyes.
I have two needles.
Do the math.
I have two needles.
Do the math.
I think casting on is the most challenging part so far. Well, that and finding quiet, uninterrupted time to knit (and count). Once I have something to photograph, I'll post my creation.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Afraid So...
With the "extra" time on my hands (i.e when all is quiet & everyone is sleeping), I have been able to read more in the evenings. I am revisiting poetry which is quite portable & not a huge time commitment. I find the response to all these questions amusing, yet soberly honest. Writing like this, makes my day.
Afraid So
Is it starting to rain?
Did the check bounce?
Are we out of coffee?
Is this going to hurt?
Could you lose your job?
Did the glass break?
Was the baggage misrouted?
Will this go on my record?
Are you missing much money?
Was anyone injured?
Is the traffic heavy?
Do I have to remove my clothes?
Will it leave a scar?
Must you go?
Will this be in the papers?
Is my time up already?
Are we seeing the understudy?
Will it affect my eyesight?
Did all the books burn?
Are you still smoking?
Is the bone broken?
Will I have to put him to sleep?
Was the car totaled?
Am I responsible for these charges?
Are you contagious?
Will we have to wait long?
Is the runway icy?
Was the gun loaded?
Could this cause side effects?
Do you know who betrayed you?
Is the wound infected?
Are we lost?
Can it get any worse?
Jeanne Marie Beaumont
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Who's the fool now??
When in doubt, make a fool of yourself.
There is a microscopically thin line between
being brilliantly creative
and
acting like the most gigantic idiot on earth.
So what the hell,
leap.
There is a microscopically thin line between
being brilliantly creative
and
acting like the most gigantic idiot on earth.
So what the hell,
leap.
Cynthia Heimel
Simple enough...
”Treat people as if they were what they ought to be
and
you help them to become what they are capable of being.”
and
you help them to become what they are capable of being.”
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
Monday, March 30, 2009
It's all coming back to me now...
Inspiration
When I initially became an educator, I was ready to take on the world. I was young, passionate, resourceful and naive. I was assigned children who were diagnosed with learning disabilities and behavioral disorders only to have them become exemplary students within a few months time. Believing in the children & their capabilities was the first step.
Mr. Esquith was able to demonstrate what a wonderful experience education can be. In his writings he tells tales of co-workers who feel his classroom is an exercise in chaos. Oh, if only I could work in the same facility as him & tap into that energy & dedication!
Rereading his books has begun to re-ignite my passion for education again. My adult brain had been cluttered with legalese, licensing regulations, policies and procedures that were "conventiently applicable" in prior employment venues. With that melee aside, I will now replace it with the inspirational words of educational professionals that demonstrate the passion that I once did to create a future society of caring, well-educated citizens of the world.
Peace to you, Rafe!
When I initially became an educator, I was ready to take on the world. I was young, passionate, resourceful and naive. I was assigned children who were diagnosed with learning disabilities and behavioral disorders only to have them become exemplary students within a few months time. Believing in the children & their capabilities was the first step.
Mr. Esquith was able to demonstrate what a wonderful experience education can be. In his writings he tells tales of co-workers who feel his classroom is an exercise in chaos. Oh, if only I could work in the same facility as him & tap into that energy & dedication!
Rereading his books has begun to re-ignite my passion for education again. My adult brain had been cluttered with legalese, licensing regulations, policies and procedures that were "conventiently applicable" in prior employment venues. With that melee aside, I will now replace it with the inspirational words of educational professionals that demonstrate the passion that I once did to create a future society of caring, well-educated citizens of the world.
Peace to you, Rafe!
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
3 decades...
A high school friend pointed out today that we have known each other for 30 years! That seemed unreal until I did the math.
She & I have gone through so many milestones together; crushes, rejection, teenage drama (not staged), college years (ooh, more un-staged drama), weddings, births, raising children (I actually managed the preschool that her children attended for a few years). This was comforting knowing that despite the lack of constant contact that we thrived in the younger years, we are able to maintain a friendship with less frequent contact (thanks in most part to adult responsibities and hectic schedules of our kids). We have recently begun recalling silly high school memories since our kids are in that age range (mine son is finishing his Junior year, her oldest is a Freshman & her youngest is starting middle school next year).
I cannot even fathom what 40 + years will have us sharing... I look at the list above and feel a tad overwhelmed with the list. The circle of life, I suppose.
She & I have gone through so many milestones together; crushes, rejection, teenage drama (not staged), college years (ooh, more un-staged drama), weddings, births, raising children (I actually managed the preschool that her children attended for a few years). This was comforting knowing that despite the lack of constant contact that we thrived in the younger years, we are able to maintain a friendship with less frequent contact (thanks in most part to adult responsibities and hectic schedules of our kids). We have recently begun recalling silly high school memories since our kids are in that age range (mine son is finishing his Junior year, her oldest is a Freshman & her youngest is starting middle school next year).
I cannot even fathom what 40 + years will have us sharing... I look at the list above and feel a tad overwhelmed with the list. The circle of life, I suppose.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Aha!
I'm feeling pretty good about my creative side stepping out today. Perhaps it was the fact that I started my day with Highlander Grogg... best brew evah!!
Anyway... I have not been inspired in a creative sense for quite a while. I have a plethora of various craft supplies that I have considered putting up for bids on eBay. I miss the joy that my handiwork gave me, mostly when I made things for others to enjoy. I sternly reprimanded myself (geez, I can be a real bitch!) and made a promise that within 6 weeks I would make 1 project per week or off to eBay we go.
In an effort to get some mileage out of my stash, I created a couple of ribbon organizers, much like the ones sold at craft stores for $15 +.
I gathered:
Here's how the final product turned out:
Anyway... I have not been inspired in a creative sense for quite a while. I have a plethora of various craft supplies that I have considered putting up for bids on eBay. I miss the joy that my handiwork gave me, mostly when I made things for others to enjoy. I sternly reprimanded myself (geez, I can be a real bitch!) and made a promise that within 6 weeks I would make 1 project per week or off to eBay we go.
In an effort to get some mileage out of my stash, I created a couple of ribbon organizers, much like the ones sold at craft stores for $15 +.
I gathered:
- shoeboxes with lids
- eyelet punch
- hammer
- dowel rod
- Xacto knife
- ribbon mess!
Here's how the final product turned out:
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Death & Taxes
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~Alfred E. Neuman
With "TAX DAY" less than a month away, I felt compelled to complete filing my taxes. Paranoid as I am, I need to review the paper copy although I complete the FREE online version. Amazed that my son was much more expedient than I & has received his return. Ah, the exuberance of youth!
Happy filing everyone!
Monday, March 9, 2009
Sping!! **
This bud's for you...
This is one of my favorite times of the year. The world returns to it's vibrant color palate of bright green, yellow, purple, pink and blue from that drab grey that enveloped us for 4 months.
There are many new projects with the arrival of spring, looking forward to the challenge.
**The title is deliberately misspelled (A poorly titled bulletin board I will NEVER forget, we laughed for a week)
Chicken Gyros...YUM!
http://www.epicurious.com/recipes/food/views/Chicken-Gyros-with-Cucumber-Salsa-and-Tsatsiki-351874?mbid=rss_epinr
Sounds delicious... always need new ideas for the versatile chicken!! Can't wait to make it.
Sounds delicious... always need new ideas for the versatile chicken!! Can't wait to make it.
Friday, March 6, 2009
Sir, you are doing it all wrong...
While working on some projects in the comfort of the local coffee shop, I can't help but overhear this gentleman who is apparently in sales for some type of software. He has a call list, highlighter & cell phone armed and dangerous... he seemed organized.
Then the calls began, his approach was brash, cold and seemingly unsuccessful. I shake my head quietly and see where things are going wrong.
This guy must have a reputation around town as he can't seem to get past the receptionist via telephone. The guy's boss shows up to compare notes on his progress & he has an impressive list (probably 40 +) of who he has contacted but no action on follow ups. He talks about problems but doesn't come up with solutions...it is evident that this company is hurting.
Shall I step over & introduce myself?? HA!
Then the calls began, his approach was brash, cold and seemingly unsuccessful. I shake my head quietly and see where things are going wrong.
This guy must have a reputation around town as he can't seem to get past the receptionist via telephone. The guy's boss shows up to compare notes on his progress & he has an impressive list (probably 40 +) of who he has contacted but no action on follow ups. He talks about problems but doesn't come up with solutions...it is evident that this company is hurting.
Shall I step over & introduce myself?? HA!
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Musings....
We become so vulnerable when we are without gainful employment. So many temptations to lure us away from the course. The computer screen blinking with shiny letters, a path to excitement, the local scrapbook store offering a "FREE" workshop (yeah, like I have the self-discipline to attend the workshop & walk out empty handed),or the comfortable sofa near the fireplace with the puppy dozing.
I think I've found a passion within me to wake early for a vigorous walk, coffee at the local coffee shop (my one indulgence) and work within my community to make it a better place. Laying around just isn't my style. I 've used this opportunity to have exeriences that (hopefully) enrich my life as well as re-connect with my family. I enjoy the stories shared by my parents, learning things about them that amaze me.
LIfe in the slower lane isn't so bad after all. Not a place I plan to linger, but I plan to enjoy the commute from this viewpoint while it presents itself.
I think I've found a passion within me to wake early for a vigorous walk, coffee at the local coffee shop (my one indulgence) and work within my community to make it a better place. Laying around just isn't my style. I 've used this opportunity to have exeriences that (hopefully) enrich my life as well as re-connect with my family. I enjoy the stories shared by my parents, learning things about them that amaze me.
LIfe in the slower lane isn't so bad after all. Not a place I plan to linger, but I plan to enjoy the commute from this viewpoint while it presents itself.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
my Mantra of the day....
"No one can make you feel inferior without your permission".... that Eleanor Roosevelt was one smart cookie! :)
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
More chocolate... more wisdom
Gotta love the Dove people! Not only do they make delicious chocolates, they find bits of wisdom to share with the world!
Today's thought: "Go confidently in the direction of your dreams"
I have been doing that for the past few weeks since becoming unemployed (YAY! I'm a statistic).
Although financially I am down in the dumps (makes you re-prioritize what is important to you), I couldn't feel more alive! So many possibilites are out there.
I have had opportunities to participate in meeting and activities I haven't been able to in over 10 years because of the nature of my (former) work. Meeting and reconnecting with people and learning new things about myself (or not so new, just laying dormant while I used my mind/body for working in a corporate environment).
I am energized, happy and enjoy taking on new adventures each day. And now... the adventure of dry laundry awaits.
Today's thought: "Go confidently in the direction of your dreams"
I have been doing that for the past few weeks since becoming unemployed (YAY! I'm a statistic).
Although financially I am down in the dumps (makes you re-prioritize what is important to you), I couldn't feel more alive! So many possibilites are out there.
I have had opportunities to participate in meeting and activities I haven't been able to in over 10 years because of the nature of my (former) work. Meeting and reconnecting with people and learning new things about myself (or not so new, just laying dormant while I used my mind/body for working in a corporate environment).
I am energized, happy and enjoy taking on new adventures each day. And now... the adventure of dry laundry awaits.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Monday, January 26, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Good Stuff!
While rearranging my home office & reviewing my personal library, I rediscovered a gem! The Word Museum: The Most Remarkable English Words Ever Forgotten written by Jeffrey Kacirk is filled with words & their history. "Ninny-broth" was a term used for coffee back in the mid 1800's & "curglaff" is the shock that you feel in bathing when you get into cold water.
It is so entertaining to read these unusual terms. The English language is such a jumble of origins and some of the slang of years ago is so much more challenging than all the techno-speak & IM stuff of today.
I guess I must be a "quidnunc"(an inquisitive person; always seeking for news)!
It is so entertaining to read these unusual terms. The English language is such a jumble of origins and some of the slang of years ago is so much more challenging than all the techno-speak & IM stuff of today.
I guess I must be a "quidnunc"(an inquisitive person; always seeking for news)!
Friday, January 9, 2009
The little speck of dust ...
If you were to cite an experience that truly makes you feel insignificant in the larger sense of the universe, what would you say it is?
Excerpt from If--- Questions for the Soul by Evelyn McFarlane
One experience was watching the events unfold on September 11th. I recall watching people jumping from the towers, watching the carnage on the streets & feeling useless! It was VERY uncomfortable to watch (and you never really got away from it, as it encompassed all media). I felt naive in my understanding of world politics and religion, not being able to comprehend how a country could concoct such an act upon others.
I cannot say that I am much wiser. I do make attempts to "go beyond the headlines" with current events to understand more of the world that I reside.
I am still naive in many ways, maybe too trustworthy of people. I wish I had the ability to judge a person's true character so I don't invest time & energy on them if they become inconsequential.
Excerpt from If--- Questions for the Soul by Evelyn McFarlane
One experience was watching the events unfold on September 11th. I recall watching people jumping from the towers, watching the carnage on the streets & feeling useless! It was VERY uncomfortable to watch (and you never really got away from it, as it encompassed all media). I felt naive in my understanding of world politics and religion, not being able to comprehend how a country could concoct such an act upon others.
I cannot say that I am much wiser. I do make attempts to "go beyond the headlines" with current events to understand more of the world that I reside.
I am still naive in many ways, maybe too trustworthy of people. I wish I had the ability to judge a person's true character so I don't invest time & energy on them if they become inconsequential.
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Random thoughts ...
Going through my 2008 Flavia calendar in an attempt to be more organized, I rediscovered a quote that made me instantly think of 4 specific people in my life.
Some people come into our lives,
leave footprints on our hearts
and we are never, ever the same.
leave footprints on our hearts
and we are never, ever the same.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Parenting a teenager
Not sure if the title is an oxymoron or not. I have made a career working with parents of young children. The terrible 2's and ferocious 4's got nothin' on this teenager business! I am so very out of my comfort zone with a child who I thought I knew so well (heck, we shared my body for 9 mos.!!)
Not that parenting can ever be learned from a book or some wise statement (Lord knows I've tried!:)), but there are some pearls of wisdom out there of some survivors. This wisdom I accept willingly, not out of desperation (yet) but out of the puzzlement that has become my son.
The suggestion of having pictures of your teen around the house to comfort you when it was okay to be seen near you is a strategy I have recently implemented. My home (and a bit of my heart) seems to echo in his increasing physical absence. During the holidays, I found myself feeling melancholy; missing his wit,exuberance & engineering.
I have resolved to make the remaining family events when we are together to be those that will bring a smile to our hearts.
Teenagers require a sense of humor, but also a healthy dose of love and understanding in an unobtrusive way. Not sure if my kid understands that I know this, but now he does.
Not that parenting can ever be learned from a book or some wise statement (Lord knows I've tried!:)), but there are some pearls of wisdom out there of some survivors. This wisdom I accept willingly, not out of desperation (yet) but out of the puzzlement that has become my son.
The suggestion of having pictures of your teen around the house to comfort you when it was okay to be seen near you is a strategy I have recently implemented. My home (and a bit of my heart) seems to echo in his increasing physical absence. During the holidays, I found myself feeling melancholy; missing his wit,exuberance & engineering.
I have resolved to make the remaining family events when we are together to be those that will bring a smile to our hearts.
Teenagers require a sense of humor, but also a healthy dose of love and understanding in an unobtrusive way. Not sure if my kid understands that I know this, but now he does.
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